Deep and Wide

I was reading another girl's blog today where she laid out a sort of New Year's blogging manifesto.  She made lots of promises about honoring her family, God, readers. 

 Promises about how she would or would not comment on the blogs of others.  

She promised not to promote herself. 

 She promised to be real and authentic.....

and not to use her blog as a diary.

Her promises sound good.  

If I were a blogger, maybe I would adopt some of her same promises.  

But I'm not. 

I am not going to make lofty statements about what is happening here,

in this space.

Frankly, this is messy business.

This is me surviving.

I am a needy mess.

My needs are as deep as they are wide.

I'm not all gloom.

But I am tired.

I need to lie down.

Tomorrow I will try again.

~Maria